My Only Treasure

I'm jobless, penniless, nearly worthless but I have my treasure : Zuziana Serenade Thea and Nelia Claire Enchantal. Zuziana sempena nama saya, Serenade sebab saya suka word ni, lagipun ertinya romantik dan Thea means gift from God..semestinya dia hadiah Tuhan yang sangat surprise, hampir buat saya hilang arah. Nelia; sebetulnya ini nama untuk Thea juga but since her name is already long nama ini tidak jadi disertakan maka diwariskan untuk our second daughter. Nelia..saya tidak tahu maksudnya cuma saya mahukan satu nama yang bermula dengan huruf N sempena nama hubby dan juga sebab saya suka nama yang ada bunyi "lia". Claire adalah pilihan hubby dan saya kurang pasti tujuan di sebalik pemilihan nama itu walaupun saya sebenarnya tidak suka nama itu - too common, macam nama kakak si Lotter lah... Enchantal nama pilihan saya sebab saya suka word "enchanted", bila disesuaikan untuk menamakan a girl jadilah Enchantal (en-shan-tel). Ya, sudah ramai memuji saya bijak memilih nama. Sengaja saya beri nama yang panjang-panjang sebagai asas melatih anak-anak ada memori yang kuat.

Both of my babies are delivered through Caesarian; dari permulaan yang saya betul-betul tidak jangkakan. Thea hampir lemas dek placenta abruptio dan sehingga kini tiada seorang pun pakar yang boleh memberitahu saya exactly tentang puncanya. Namun, syukurrr...tiada masalah lanjut selepas the successful operation. Enchantal? She came unexpectedly ketika Thea was only 4-months dan saya sendiri atas nasihat doktor perlu menunggu 3 tahun lagi to conceive. Saya tidak tergamak membunuh! Selepas sesi kaunseling dengan doktor pakar, saya memilih untuk C kali kedua - takut kalau-kalau sudah normal at last terpaksa juga dikejarkan ke operation room untuk menjahit stitches yang terdahulu. Dari risiko "2-jahitan" saya fikir lebih baik saya "dijahit" sekali sahaja.

Translated on 31st January 2010:

I'm jobless, penniless, nearly worthless but I have my treasure : Zuziana Serenade Thea and Nelia Claire Enchantal. Zuziana signify my own name, Serenade because without reason is my favourite, thus romantic meaning and Thea means gift from God..she is indeed truly a shocking surprise gift from God, I nearly lost my mind. Nelia; this was supposed for Thea's too but since her name is already long the name was disbanded hence kept on bench for our second daughter. Nelia..unsure its meaning, picked it up because I wanted a name which start with the letter N as hubby and another reason because "lia" sound sweet. Claire was chosen by hubby though and I have no idea of why he did so although it is really out of my league - too common, besides it is also the name of Lotter's sister... Enchantal because again without reason is based on my other favourite "enchanted", and harmonized as a girl's name became Enchantal (en-shan-tale). Yeah, many said so I picked good names. Giving long names were intended hoping that my children will have a very good memory.

Both of my babies are delivered through Caesarian; when the good turned to the unexpected. Thea was nearly drowned due to placenta abruptio and not even a single specialist could tell me exactly of why did it happened. But, hallelujah...no complication after the successful operation. Enchantal? She came unexpectedly when Thea was only 4-months when I was supposed, from medical aspect, to wait for another 3 years to conceive. I don't have the gut to banish kill murder! After few session with specialists, again I chose second C - what's the point of trying to deliver  when the tendency of previous scar to reopen is like 99% and at the end of the day another hassle to speed down to the operation room. With "2-stitches" risk I thought we'd better opt the "1-stitch" only.